I'm very nervous right now. I still haven't gotten a call, and no winner has been announced. I'm on the verge of calling the company in charge of the contest I'm so scared! I also wrote a song for the singing contest. Everyone seems to be singing Miley songs, but I wrote my own, because it's judged on creativity. Here it is:
I've come to conclusions That the time has come To let my voice out And let the world hear it
I've waited for this I've waited for this moment To take me where I need to be
CHORUS Take me on a path Take me on journey Take me where I need to go
Let me make a record Let me sing my songs Let me go Where dreams come true
True
I don't care how long it takes To get there Just take me Where I need to go Take me there I'm gonna get there Get there To where dreams come true
CHORUS
Let it take A million years I don't care Whatever the pace I gotta get there Get there to this place Where dreams come true True True Dreams come true
I actually kind of like it. :) I'm just working on my voice to sing it, because I wrote it to involve a lot of "voice" in it. I also don't sing with other people around, so I'm going to have to wait until I'm by myself to record it. I have to keep it under a minute to enter. But it could pay off so much! I mean, imagine, just making it to finals, that would be awesome! That would mean that Miley liked my video, and if I won. I'd get to go record, and even if I dont like my voice, she'd be my vocal coach, she'd teach me to sing, and maybe we'd even get to be friends and even sing a duet together! And if my albulm would go well, imagine being able to go on tour. Imagine, a bunch of fans, coming, paying for tickets and coming out, screaming and singing along, just for me. That would be.... wow. And not just once, tours are everyday. Even just opening for a show would be an honor, and fans everywhere I go, any place at all, and cameras, and people screaming for autographs would just be awesome. But much as I can hope, I have to realize, chances are so slim, only a few people out of the millions get picked for that, and how can I ever be sure I'm one of them? Still, I can't stop imagining all the things that come with stardom, just with one single minute video of me singing one song, so many things could happen. But it's so likely I'll get my hopes up to have them dashed away, I mean, it's rare even to make it to the final four that they're picking, unless Miley truly sees something in me. But I'm just an ordinary fan, even if everyone's special, she sees people like me everyday. And that's why I'm going to try not to get my hopes too high. Because anything can happen, I can lose, make it to the finals, but lose, win, be so close to winning, really so many things can happen. And that's what scares me.
I don't want to double post but I just called the company. They gave me another number. I called it. They asked me what my name was, and I told them, they said I'm not one of the winners. Some girl said she won, a little tiny kid, who doesnt deserve it, in the pictures she had jonas stuff behind her, not miley. my mom said they probably had to pick random people out of a hat, to be fair and stuff, that the contest was rigged, but that doesnt soften the ache I feel inside, and it doesn't stop my eyes from clouding with tears because I got my hopes up just to have them shattered, I was so close to my dream and yet it was just out of grasp. And all I ever wanted is gone.
That's like how I felt when i went to the "American Idol Camp". I thought it was just a camp, but my mom told me it was much bigger than i thought. She was right. There were so many kids there, and we got to meet so many famous people. Just to think, that one day, One of them might be famous. Really, really famous. And I got to meet them before they became stars?
It's a really weird feeling, right?
I absolutely love that song!! Can I use it? I wanna see if it can match my chords I taught myself on my guitar! x3
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No, this is why: I just called the company. They gave me another number. I called it. They asked me what my name was, and I told them, they said I'm not one of the winners. Some girl said she won, a little tiny kid, who doesnt deserve it, in the pictures she had jonas stuff behind her, not miley. my mom said they probably had to pick random people out of a hat, to be fair and stuff, that the contest was rigged, but that doesnt soften the ache I feel inside, and it doesn't stop my eyes from clouding with tears because I got my hopes up just to have them shattered, I was so close to my dream and yet it was just out of grasp. And all I ever wanted is gone.
I just..can't believe it. I'd describe, but there are no words to describe my anger and sadness.
It's okay, Jessie! I know, you were really looking forward to this oppertunity. I don't understand that kind of hurt, but I know that you can get through it. I'm sure there will be another chance like this sometime in youe life.
You know, when I'm really angry, or sad, or exited, or depressed... When I have a strong emotion overtake me... I put it into writing. I write a song, or a poem. Once you have all of your feelings on paper it's much easyer. That's what I do. I hope it helps.
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Thanks Bubbleshine. :) Your a great friend. I'm writing it right now. The words just came to me. Maybe, even if I don't win the next singing contest, I might be able to be a singer after all. Thanks so much, I'll definitely post it when it's done. ;)