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Amourapaw


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RE: my life love && laughs ~mossi [complications. 4.25]
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Complications 4.25

First of all, I want to apologize for not being on this site for awhile. I'm sincerely sorry. It's just that.. my life has been difficult for awhile. And I just couldn't find time to get on. **Sorry.** <33

This entry is called Complications. One way or another, this word fits the way my life is right now. Complicated. Sometimes, I feel like I can't trust my life anymore. Like I don't want to live it anymore. Like I want to just die. Which is pretty funny, considering my entry up above, stating that i don't want to die. But now, it's hard.

I have an ex-boyfriend, who treating me like a piece of crap. He turned my friends against me. One of my very best friends, that I did EVERYTHING together with [we had SO much fun together, sometimes thinking that she's gone hurts me so much] decided to betray me and hang out with my ex. His 3 friends cuss at me and lie about me, saying I have s*x with people. And that's not all. I get hate mail all the time now, and on of my really close friend is... starting to go towards him too. See, he likes her, and she like him. And I TRY so hard to get her to realize that he's not right for he. HE'S PERVERTED, RUDE, AND I HATE HIM. But it's not my say. When I told her things he did when we were still together, she supports him and says that she likes him, and will try to get him to become good. But I CAN'T take him anymore. He's just so rude to me. And he gets his friends to cuss at me. And flick me off. And lie about me. And spread rumors about me. He talks about me behind my back, i KNOW. He's killing me. The girl who he likes [lets just call her 'J', for it to be easier, since that's the first letter of her name], he gives her stuffed animals and texts her 24/7 and talks about her in front of my face. He's doing things to her that he did to me. I'm confused. I'm hurt. Does he like me or not? SHE FLIPPING LOOKS LIKE ME. We're practically twins. And all the girls who he 'liked' after our break-up, all look like me.

And that's not it, though it's one of my biggest troubles. I like this one guy. He's amazing. He makes me laugh and forget about everything in life. He makes me HAPPY. He makes me be me. Sounds good, huh? Not really. He has a girlfriend. And I know her. She's super nice and hilarious. And I have to admit, a pretty cool girl, but they're an awkward couple. And on facebook, he sends look messages to her. And whenever I read them, my heart shatters into a million pieces. And entwined into this situation is another one. My other ex-boyfriend [who's super nice, and we're still homies now] is his.. best friend. And the dude who I LIKED are friends as well. So there's a situation. I'm scared that if my 'good' ex finds out I like his best friend, he'll hate me. But I can't help it. I <3 him. But he has a girlfriend. And I can't stand it anymore.

Grades. Grades, grades, grades. I feel like i'm failing school. I've been getting bad grades lately. I missed like 11 questions [out of 48] on a TAKS practice [TAKS stands for Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills, a test we have to take in order to get moved up a grade] and they were easy questions. And I BARELY got passed the 'A' border on my progress report on Spanish. And it's just been TERRIBLE.

Friends. It's not that big, but my best friend gets rude sometimes. And I feel as if HORMONES are kicking in, but I haven't gone through my . if you know what i mean. >.< I feel just SO mad sometimes, and it's almost unpredicted. I feel like I need to cry, those days.

I know, this was a ridiculously long journal entry. I spilled my heart out. I'm sorry if I wasted your time, but I needed to tell SOMEONE, but I couldn't tell my friends or whatever. Because sometimes, I literally think of suicide. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I love my friends and family, it's just that everything is complicated now. Everything is too confusing, and I can't stand it. <33

Mossflower.


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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Florestadream


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about your ex: wow what a... i shouldn't say it here. i'm so sorry. but show him he isn't getting to you. say you're happy for him and hope he finds the perfect girl. show him he's nothing to you, because you are, for lack of a better word, beautifully amazing.

liking the guy: i can't say i know how you feel, but i know it will pass.(: trust me.

friend: amen, mossi. amen.

oh and grades: ahaha i know how that is. but... just chill. what i've been doing is focusing ridiculously hard on school and band, but nothing else. hormones and liking guys still happens, but school, music and sports always comes first. take some time. step back from life.

do you have an email? it might be easier for me to say the stuff i want to through email since i can't cuss here... :P hahaha

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
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Amourapaw


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haha yes, restie, i have an email :p
but you can facebook me, if that might be easier xD
i'll PM you my email (:
And thank you. You're amazing, resta.
But what I think that's hilarious is that 'J' doesn't like him anymore. She thinks he's annoying and ugly and sees all the wholes in him. She's like 'Now the barrier just kinda unblocked and he kinda looks like Jackie' [Jackie's this really ugly girl at our school [no offense xD] and they DO look a like xD]


-- Edited by Mossflower on Thursday 6th of May 2010 12:58:31 AM

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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Florestadream


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i've gotten that i'm amazing from two people this year. i'mma on a roll(: thank you mossi! and thats hilarious hahahaha wowww and my ex and i are friends nowww i hope it works out for you, too!!

-- Edited by Florestapaw on Friday 7th of May 2010 09:08:07 PM

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
. 
Amourapaw


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hehe :D thanksss

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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Amourapaw


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RE: my life love && laughs ~mossi [mothers day and iron man 2 || 5.9.10]
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poster_ironman-21.jpg

This movie was amazing. Enough said. Hilarious and sad, funny and sweet. <3 I. Love. It. (: [= Watch it. It's great.

Mothers day. Had fun :D Played violin all day x.x Ehm... got $35 and bought a strapless tank top :D


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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Florestadream


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iron man two : hahaha that's the movie i was seeing when i had to go... ya know... the one with my ex. o.O''

mothers day: moi? i was kicked out. xDDD

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
. 
Amourapaw


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owo :D
and kicked outa where?

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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Amourapaw


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RE: this is me ~angel [and even more. i need help || 5.20.10]
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my.life.sucks.
I'm not even going to lie. Sure, all my friends are great, and i'm pretty popular and make good grades. but i've gotten into so much trouble this week. I can't take it anymore. My eyes are hurting so bad from crying. i don't know what to do.
i skipped gym class and went to the other gym. we got busted and my mom wasn't mad. that happened yesterday.
and then today, i got my phone taken up. IN GYM. my mom was pretty mad. and i'm pretty much grounded from my phone until monday once i get it back. and i have to pay the $15 dollars for me to have my phone back. i was crying at school, but my friends kept me up. but still. my life's been terrible. and the teacher caught me texting my mom about not getting in trouble for yesterday and only getting 20 points off for skipping gym and who cares and she got so pissed.
help.


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darlin',
you're hiding in the closet
once again, start smiling.
I know you're tryin', real hard
not to turn your head away
pretty darling, face tomorrow
tomorrow's not yesterday. <3

 
Shatterstep


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Hmm well it could always be worse. I mean your best friend since fourth grade could have told the first love of your life that you checked on him on Christmas and then you not knowing about it and him breaking up with you. Then him dating your other best friend to get back at you and and finally before you final exam concert him learning the truth and saying he has moved on and making you a nervous wreck. That sucks xD

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"Well get there if its where we want to be and if not, well then I guess we never really lost anything in the first place."

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