Tigerpaw ate his freshkill quickly, ready to start the day. He would become a warrior soon, and he hoped Bluefur would be impressed. He got up to greet her, maybe he'd find out if she was going on a patrol later, so he could convince his mentor, Thistleclaw to let him come. He saw Bluefur run out from the medicine cat den, straight to Snowfur, who was emerging from the warrior den.
"Snowfur, I'm expecting kits!" she meowed happily as she reached her sister. Tigerpaw saw Bluefur's stomach was slightly rounder than usual. His heart sank. He was aware of Snowfur murmuring to Bluefur, but he wasn't paying attention. He couldn't, he was too sad. He wanted to still ask Bluefur on a hunt, but couldn't bear to try. He knew if he tried to speak his voice would be choked with tears. Instead he whirled around on his paws and walked out of camp. He should be meeting Thistleclaw at the training hollow soon, but he couldn't get Bluefur out of his mind. When he was deeper into the forest, he layed down on a patch of moss.
He couldn't help picturing Bluefur beside him though. Her silver tinged muzzle who shine in the sunlight, and her blue-gray pelt would be groomed perfectly. And her piercing blue eyes would meet his, showing warmth and her kind personality. He was aware of the moss beneath his head becoming soaked in tears as he realized that if she lay beside him right now, if they were in camp, sharing freshkill in the morning light, there would be a slightly different shape of her stomach, betraying the fact that she was expecting kits. And Tigerpaw wouldn't be able to bear seeing them, without being able to ask her each day how the kit were doing, how their kits were doing. They were not his, there would be no kit with dark tabby markings among them, no mirror of himself.
What had he done wrong? He had always helped her? Was it true, had all his good deeds gone to waste? Well, then, what was the use of them, then? He sighed, but couldn't stop thinking about why he had even tried to be nice to Bluefur. He went back into camp again. Bluefur, just the cat he definitely didn't want to see, ran up to him, each of her pawsteps light and quick, as if running after a mouse through crisp leaves.
"Tigerpaw, there's a patrol leaving right now, want to come hunting?" Bluefur invited kindly.
Tigerpaw narrowed his eyes and let his gaze drift down to Bluefur's stomach.
"It will be moons before my kits are born, I can still go hunting," Bluefur meowed, as if reading his thoughts, "want to come?"
Tigerpaw's eyes narrowed even more, to no more than slits.
"No, thanks," he replied curtly, stalking away.
"Apparently every good thing I do goes to waster anyway," he mumbled as he left, not caring whether or now Bluefur heard.
A couple moons later, Tigerpaw was now a warrior, Tigerclaw. Bluefur's kits had been born, and Tigerpaw had seen them. Bluefur, for some reason, would not reveal the three kits' names. They all looked just like her, with blue-gray fur. Mosskit was a bit smaller than the rest, which Bluefur was a little worried about. This morning he woke up and emerged from the warriors' den. He saw cats outside the nursery, comforting Bluefur for some reason. Tigerclaw bounded up, and found out the news. A badger had taken Bluefur's kits, there was a large hole torn into the nursery. Tigerclaw nearly felt happy, but remembered that they could've been his kits taken. He didn't really know what to think. He wanted to feel symphathy for Bluefur, but he was too upset. Not about the kits being stolen, but about the kits themselves. He narrowed his eyes and went to the freshkill pile to eat.
Seasons later, Tigerclaw was near the Thunderpath, hiding in a bush, his eyes narrowed. He had sent message for Bluestar to come to the Thunderpath. She would come rushing along the narrow path, not realizing what she was doing, and a monster would come, and heartbeats later she'd have lost another life. But his plans went wrong, a gray cat came, but she was smaller, and much too hyper to be Bluestar, for Bluestar was ill. It was Cinderpaw, instead, probably sent instead of Bluestar.
Only a few moons later, Tigerclaw was happy once again, he had a much more thought through plan. He was entering camp with many rogues. He signaled his tail, and they shot out from all directions. Soon the cats were all busy fighting after recovering from their shock, and Tigerclaw crept forward toward Bluestar's den. He would never forget her kits, even if they were killed. She had made him deputy, but only after Tigerclaw set up a plan so it was impossible that he would not be chosen to become deputy. Now he would get revenge.
He slid into the leader's den, and immediately leaped onto his target. He knew how well her fighting moves were, and she writhed furiously from under him.
"I'll kill you again and again, it is my time now for power!" he hissed. Then he bent down, about to bite into her neck, but first whispered into her ear, "Did you really think I would dismiss you having kits so easily, after all that I did for you? Think again!"
But in those few moments of him saying that, his body was pulled off of Bluestar. He spun around, spitting furiously, and saw Fireheart. Why had this cat always gotten in the way? He leaped onto him and fought, but soon he was defeated, and was cornered beneath the Great Rock by Bluestar and Fireleaf. He sat there, more furious than ever, as he listened as Bluestar, the cat he onced loved-and still did, deep inside, he knew-banished him. He asked his only friends, Darkstripe, Dustpelt, and Longtail, a chance to come with him, but they refused. Furious he left campt, but he knew this wasn't the end.
Tigerstar went to ShadowClan, and became their leader soon. His daughter, a trustworthy kit, but a kit whose mother was Goldenflower, not Bluestar, joined him. He secretly controlled a dog pack, leading it to ThunderClan. He watched in secret as the Clan found out about his treacherous plan, and felt a stab of worry. But as they were being led out, he saw Fireheart, the cat who had gotten in the way of it all, being attacked. Then, just as good, Bluestar rushed to his aid, and they were both struggling at the bottom of the cliff. He ran to the bottom of the cliff to watch, and saw as Bluefur died. She revealed to Stonefur and Mistyfoot she was their mother, and they forgave her. So, these were her kits, not killed by a badger, but instead taken to RiverClan. One must've died in RiverClan on the way over, but now he knew her kits, the kits that should be his-the kits that should be theirs.
Now Tigerstar had a perfect plan. He stood on a pile of bones. Below were Stonefur and Mistyfoot, Bluestar's kits. They would be dead soon. But he needed a reason, so he told TigerClan, RiverClan and ShadowClan joined, that they would be killed because they were half-Clan. But there was also Featherpaw and Stormpaw, who also were half-Clan. To get away with his plan, he'd have to kill the four. So he ordered the warriors to kill them, but Stonefur leaped forward, getting in the way, and instead defended Stormpaw. Stonefur, at least was killed, but the others were kept as prisoners. Later, they all escaped, making Tigerstar bristle with fury. At leat Stonefur was dead, but Mistyfoot had gotten away.
Now Tigerstar could surely destroy ThunderClan, and show Bluestar, watching from StarClan, how powerful he was. And he would make Firestar regret how he had always come in the way. He came up with Scourge and the threatening BloodClan behind him. He proudly ordered BloodClan to attack, and when they didn't he grew angry. Then he saw a flash of dog teeth enforced claws unsheathed, and they were thrown onto Tigerstar. He writhed and tried to free himself, and he wondered if this is what Bluestar felt, when he was on top of her trying to kill her. He felt sharp pain down his whole stomach, and his open wound stung. Over and over he was shaken uncontrollably until his life was quickly over, and the next time he opened his eyes he was in a dark forest. He looked around, and called for Bluestar hopefully. Maybe he'd finally shown his strength, and they could live in StarClan. But he ran and ran, and there was nothing, but dark emptiness, and he went back to the day when Bluefur found out she was having kits. The dark emptiness was like his heart had become from that day to the rest of his life.