Warrior Cats: The Four Clans

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Wednesday, April 29 2009, 4:23

Hey guys! Been a while since my last journal =D
I need everyone to wish me luck for this Saturday. I am gonig to be on my Tae Kwon Do school's Demo team! This saturday i have to do a show at a relay for life meeting as part of the entertainment i guess. Anyway, i have to d a dual form with my brother, the one i got gold for, and break 3 boards. I need the good lucks because i hurt my hand earlier this week practing my board breaking moves and it still hurts. I am going to be doing a palm strike(which is the move i hurt myself with), a spinning hammer fist and a back kick. I have to break them one right after the other and i am not sure my accuracy is all that great. 

Well in other news i am still single and content to be just that. Its not like i havent given it thought though... I guess i will eventually be attracted to someone(a boy... not a girl YUCK! XP) I usually think to much about relationships and what it would feel like... I have to say from all my experiences as the third party watching a relationship unfold, love stinks... I am talking about those type of lovely feelings that you get around your boyfriend or girlfriend and go, ohhh! You are so handsome/pretty! I love you so much *o* ..... No.... That isnt love my friends... -_-
Love is an action not a feeling. That is what i believe. A person can make you feel a certain way but that can be where it stops. *sigh* I might be doomed to be alone but as it is i have to say that sounds quite comfortable!
I believe the kind of love i want is the kind where i could be getting ready to go to a party or something and my boyfriend/husband is going to watch a show that they really love and a new episode is coming out that night, and they still come despite that. 

Speaking of TV shows and sacrifices... My brother is going to be gradutating soon and he had to do a senior project. His presentation was two days ago almost during the time when a new House MD episode was coming on. I am sure i have tol you all that my mom is obsessed with that show. I have to say its starting to become unhealthy. If any of us even cough when its on she yells, "SHUT UP!" or makes us leave the room. Now last monday a new episode was coming out and my mom was kind of ticked that she had to go to this presentation that might run in to the time period of the episode. Here is how the seen took place in the form of a first person perspective story mode:

I sat on the couch watching my brother's blank expression as he told my mother, "Yeah, it starts at 6:30(night time) but you need to get there by 5:45 so that you are there before the doors close." My eyes turned to my mother who sat on the couch beside me.
"What time are you going to go though? I told you before i am not going to miss my episode of house." There was a slight laugh in her voice but i knew from experience she was completely serious. She would have gotten up and left in the middle of his performance just so she could rush home and watch it. I felt my body tense up defensively for my brother.
Yet all his did was knit his brows and crossed his arms over his chest. "I know, you told me that before." His voice was curt because he had understood like i had that she was serious. "I dont care if you stay through or not." I felt a frown touch my lips because i knew that it did mean something to him despite the fact that he and my mother fought on a daily basis.
"Yeah, whatever," my mother growled back a her anger was beginning to boil. I saw my brother's eyes narrow and i could tell there was going to be an argument. I stood and motioned for him and i to leave the room.
"Fine!" my brother snapped as we left, "Dont come, wouldnt want you to miss it for the world." I heard my mother growl back but i didnt catch what she had said.

Later that evening we were sitting in the High School theatre, we had shown up at the time my brother had said but they had started early. We had walked in and took our seats. My brother was supposed to be second to go but they had changed the line up. They put someone else before him and i felt my mother beside me growing impatient. "Why dont you go and ask your teacher when you are going?" She whispered to my brother.
"Because she is on the stage!" he snarled back, "I am not going up there to while they are changing it for the next person."
"Go and ask!" my mother growled. I shot a dirty look at her but she didnt catch it.
"I will ask when she goes to the sound booth!" my brother snapped back, his voice rising a bit. My mother rolled her eyes and turned away.
"I still dont see why you cant just go up there and ask, it wont take more than two seconds." She crossed one leg over the other like she was fed up with the conversation.
"Because, its rude!" my brother hissed. "I am going to wait!" With that he stood from his seat and stormed away. I turned to my mother and narrowed my eyes but said nothing.
"What?" she snipped. I didnt reply, finding her bad attitude not worth my time.

After my brother had gone and people congratualated him on his speach and video my mother, sister and I stood and moved out of the row of seat. My brother trotted up to us with a smile on his face. "Great job," i laughed.
"Yeah," my mother said distractedly. I felt my brother bristle beside me.
"So," he started, keeing his anger under control, "Are you staying for the rest of it?"
My mother shook her head and i sighed, "Me and Rusty would stay but we cant all fit in to your car since you brought our friends." My brother nodded and turned. He waved goobye as he went back to our friends.
When my mother, sister and I were in our car and heading home our, mood had improved but only slightly. "So," my mother started, "What do you want for dinner?"
"I dont know," I replied with a slight laugh hoping to keep up the mood, "I didnt take anything out."
"I could order a pizza how about that?" She glanced down at the clock and frowned, "Wait, nevermind, it will get here by the time house is over." I rolled my eyes but my mother caught it this time. "What?" she sounded a bit sarcasitc yet somewhat serious.
"Oh nothing," I said with a sigh, "Its just you and your obsessions." I had said this phrase a lot but usually in a light hearted manner. Yet this night i was just fed up. All she ever talked about was that stupid show. I have to say i enjoy House as well but not to that degree.
"Well i not about ready to miss it," she said with a slight laugh, reenforcing House's role in her agenda. I sighed harshly and she snipped, "What?!"
"House thats what!" I snarled back, my emotions on the brink of being controled, "Its geting to point where its just plain scary!" I turned and looked out the car window avoiding her gaze.
"I dont get what's wrong with it? There are a lot of worse things to be obsessed about." She said heavily, trying to justify her reasoning. I scoffed and narrowed her eyes at me. "Its a new episode for crying out loud! I have gone to every one of your brother's shows and stuff, I am not about ready to give this up."
That was it, i had had enough. I whirled aroudn with a scowl and snarled back, "This is the last thing he has before graduation."
"I know that!" she replied, matching my tone.
"You do?" I hissed sarcasticly.
"Yeah! I have sacrificed so much for you kids i am not going to give up what makes me happy!" She tossed me a dark glare.
I felt the hairs on the back of my neck bristle with anger as i shouted, "Oh yeah!? Well Ivory doesnt have any re-runs!" I turned and looked out the window with disdain plastered on my face. The rest of the way home we rode in silence.


Thats pretty much how it went ^^" Obviously i am the one from whose perspective it is. This is exactly the converstaion we had minus one or two words. I am not saying my mother is a bad person. She just gets carried away. My brother is not perfect himself and these two get in to fights alot. I try and stay out of it but i get to caught up with the emotions that i just have to step in...

-- Edited by Ebbs on Wednesday 29th of April 2009 11:26:13 PM

Haha! Thanks so much Dusky! I am sure i will be able to do my best now >=3

Okay, I thought this over, Ebbonners, and here's what I 'ave ta say.

Tell your brother, that once the show is done with, laugh it all off. Just laugh; 'cause all things come to an end, and T.V. shows are definitely one of them. Also, remind him that he has you, and Grovers there for him. Of course, your mom is important, but still. He has the rest of his family to fall back upon if something ad happens; and he should be honored to have a sister like you, Ebonie. You're very kind and everything, and I am so glad you stood up for your mother in not as rude of a way I would have. I can't ever seem to keep my mouth shut; I have a problem with that. Hahaha... I am very, VERY loud... *sheepish laugh* And I bet your brother (even though I have no idea who he is... Hahaha.) did a magnificent job!
And best of luck for your Tae Kwon Do demo team! My friend is in demo team; she could kick my sorry butt in a fight (if I didn't have a book. LOOONGGGGGG story. Hahaha...). But I think that is AMAZING that you are in demo team, and I hope that your hand feels better!
I agree with the whole relationship thing. I'm single as well (even though people think I'm going out with two guys [ there is two stories]), and proud of it. And I have been in a relationship once (a very short one, of course. Hahaha!), and to tell you the truth, I was happier single. xD Yes, happier single. Of course, maybe it was because this kid was, like, three years older, but still. And the fact he had MANY girlfriends before... xD Anyways, yes, I completely agree.

If you laugh away the pains and sorrows, they're never gonna come back.