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TOPIC: Ebony's Journal ~A little more than ticked off...~ .:June 3rd:.
Ebonycloud


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Ebony's Journal ~Another trip down memory lane~ .:May 14th:.
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Friday, May 22 2009, 12:33 AM

What am i doing up so late right? Well its just because i cant sleep. Anyway, today i went to go see an eye doctor because guess what? Ebbs is going blind XD I have always had problems with my right eye because since birth i have had a droppy eyelid. Its only really noticable when i first wake up in the morning but about an hour afterward you cant notice a thing. Still its annoying and now that stupid right eye is really throwing my vision off. Last year i had 20:25 vision and so i know it is a ton worse right now. I had to go to the doctors office and nobody in my family realized just how bad my right eye was. Okay you know those charts they have for you to read the really big letters and then they get smaller right? Well we started off with the small ones and i literally couldnt even see them. So we went to the next line and so forth until i was at the top of the chart and the biggish letters under the REALLY BIG letter. I could see those but it still was a bit blurry. My other eye isnt so bad off but my mom finally realized just how blind i am XD
Anyway, i defiantly need glasses and its going to be weird wearing them. I havent needed glasses at all through my life. Now having to wear them is going to feel quite odd... Well i am going to be as blind as a bat someday... Just hope it doesnt get to the point where i cant even see what i am doing right in front of me. Then i will have to wear them all the time. I dont want to do that. I am nearsighted obviously and i can see what i do for my drawings but this may affect it, then again it might not. I had my pupils dialated today as well and everything up close was getting me sick. It wasnt really helpful that for the past two days i have been really sick. I was ill at about 5 and at 6 AM about two days ago. And yesterday i had a bloody nose. I havent had one of those in years! Now i am in quite a bit of pain because it feels like someone is stabbing me right below my stomach... I am sure i will get over it soon though. I usually do. Anyway, kind of a pointless journal but still... just felt like sharing that i need glasses now XD





-- Edited by Ebonycloud on Friday 22nd of May 2009 07:33:33 AM

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Florestadream


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RE: Ebony's Journal ~Ebbs needs glasses~ .:May 22nd:.
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I kind of have the same problem, except I needed glasses since second grade. Lately my left eye has been acting weird and has been very, very blurry at times. Glasses aren't that bad, and contacts are a blessing. :D

I hope you feel better Ebboners! :3 *hugs*

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
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Ebonycloud


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Wednesday, June 3 2009, 8:03 PM

I can honestly say i am furious right now... My brother just got kicked out of the house. Remember a while ago i had said that my mother and brother havent gotten along very well? Well for whatever reason she got really mad at him and he got the boot. He graduated last saturday and he cant do anything about it. Yet while i was helping him pack his stuff, he didnt look like he cared. We both knew this was coming but i couldnt help but seeth a bit.
I felt tears come to my eyes a few times but i managed to keep them away... That is until now. He is gone and i only let a few out but thats alright. Me and my brother have been best friends since we were in diapers and now that he is gone... I mean he really is going to be gone! I wont see him unless my dad comes to pick us up to go to his house on weekends. Man this is tough...
My mother is a roller coaster of emotion and if she doesnt get over it in a few days, this is going to be permanent. I dont know what to do... Then again i dont think there is anything i can do because my brother doesnt seem to sad to leave. I will miss him terribly if my mom doesnt let him come back. But what am i going to do right? These things happen... Whats worse is I'm next... Life stinks...

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Duskstar


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RE: Ebony's Journal ~A little more than ticked off...~ .:June 3rd:.
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Oh Ebbs. Dear, dear Ebbs. We're all here for you, and trust me, I KNOW how you feel. My sister's twelve years older than me, and I do love her dearly, but when she was in college, she lived far away, and now she's in Oregon, and I never get to see her. And soon she'll be married, and I don't know where the days have gone. But I know how y ou feel, and what I can say is this : Be strong. You know you have friends who will stand up for you. And most of all, they care about you. I must say, that is truly rare in internet relationships. Few people can call interned buddies 'true friends.' but I know I can call you one, and many others see the same in you. And so, no matter how hard life's challenges are, keep standing up. The game's not to see who falls, but to see who gets up. So get up, and look for the rainbows after the storm.

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Florestadream


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Ebonners, I am so sorry... I know how you feel. (However, it was my mother who kicked my father out of the house for a few days.) To see someone you love and know so well, gone from your life, I feel so sorry for you and your brother, Ebonners. It is horrible that your mother went to the lengths to kick your brother out of the house. Not just ground him, but kick him out. I find that... incredibly odd. Aren't mothers supposed to be the ones who call the child back when he runs away, or doesn't come back home? Isn't that the mothers job, and not the actual kicking the kid out? None of my immediate family is that special to me, actually, so I cannot fully relate to you, but I'm so sorry Ebonners. I'm not a real crier either. (I cry a tear or two, but thats because of contacts and... I digress.)
And obviously your brother doesn't care one bit, since he knew it was coming sooner or later in his time living with your mum. But you both probably feel very bitter and hurt by your mother's decision to kick him out. And by your own mother.. But... Isn't life full of these crappy problems that make you want to sit in a corner and cry until you have no more tears? You hate them; they kill you inside. But, you know... Things will get better, Ebonners. You're such a brave, kind, and strong soul. I can't believe this kind of thing tore your brother away from the house you live in... but I believe that this will make you and your brother's relationship stronger. When something seperates two close people, seperating them just makes the bond they made closer, and allows them to cross paths either spiritually or physically. I know this may sound like a load of crap, but truly, it isn't at all. Lots of people believe this, and I have to say, I definitely believe this. 

Keep your head high, Ebbs, 'cause nothing's holding you back.

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
. 
Ebonycloud


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Thank you guys so much for helping words! You dont know how much it means to me that you guys care =D
Last night i showed my mother just how unhappy i was about this whole thing. I usually dont yell or get to flared up. I just become pasive agressive. She got the hint in the way i talked i suppose. Today she decided to let my brother back in the house because she had planned on having Grover/Fadie move in to his room. I went in and cleaned it up since he had meesed it up gathering his stuff. I made it up the way i usually do when i cleaned it up. My mother walked in to his room this morning while i was taking a shower and told me that i had made the room with an underlying statement that meant, "This is his Ivory's room."
She had heard the way i talked to her last night, my voice was upset and curt but not hateful. She thought it over and over and let my brother come back. We went out for dinner and she talked to him about the reason he was allowed to come back. She said it was because i cared so much and that by keeping my mouth shut and subtly letting her know how i felt through my actions she let him back.
I am just glad that i can manage to persuade her like that. Anyway, i am rather happy that he is back now!

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Florestadream


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I'm so happy for you Ebonners! That's really good and you're lucky you're so calm! I would've thrown an annoying tantrum. (But I digress! Lol!) I think you're so lucky you have a close bond with your brother! That is rare to come by these days, as I have seen between my friend Paul and his brother Zac. They hate eachother -- like, they won't talk to each other. So feel gifted you have such a close bond! I'd love to have a bond like that with my family! And I'm gonna shut up now... Hahaha!

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07.08.13

okay, then.
unfortunately loving an idiot
who doesn't love me back.
but i'm not falling.
i just kind of...
am.
. 
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