I ran outside of my Cabin and I saw Annabeth. I ran after her. " Annabeth, I'm sorry about Caylpso.... I don't love her...."
Each golden curl shone almost like the sun itself, woven amongst the mass of honey blonde hair that rolled down her shoulders with careless ease. Her hair fell around her face with such effortless grace that it could take your breath away. Each ripple of light that bounced from curl to curl
Stupid darn hair! Annabeth cursed, flicking loose strands of hair from hands to hand across her parting. After messing with it for a few moments, she looked at me. Id been watching her intently and shook my head with a laugh.
We were sat, laid out across from each other on the beach, a little way out from Camp at sunset: taking full advantage of the absence of the after-dinner campfire. Wed agreed to practice our defence for Chiron, but now our weaponry lay forgotten on the sand as we'd begun to talk. It always amazed me how easy Annabeth was to talk to, to laugh with...all I'd have to do is meet her eye minutes after a joke and we'd soon have tears rolling down our faces and be shaking with laughter.
What? Annabeth asked, offended. I continued to laugh until I felt a blow to the head. Rubbing it as it throbbed, I tried to stop at Annabeths outraged look.
Why, Perseus Jackson, are you laughing at me?
I met her eye and shrugged, wondering why I had got myself into this situation.
Look, I said, as Annabeth raised an eyebrow, Its justwell, you never really come across as. you dont seem like, yknow, the kind of girl whoslikeinto her looks. Please dont be offended, please dont be offended.
I thought Id done okay, but Annabeth, who seemed to be finding the subject both mildly amusing yet rather insulting, narrowed her eyes.
So, what are you implying? Annabeth asked, propping herself up on her elbows, You think Im not pretty, then, Percy?
Ah, . The dreaded question.
No. I answered immediately. Annabeth smirked to herself, so I got the feeling Id answered correctly. I watched her carefully, waiting for her next attack. She turned her gaze on me once more.
So, Percy. Annabeth said, resting her head on one hand, If youre the expert on me and my alleged prettiness
Uh, yeah about that; Im really not the expert, here
A mischievous glint lit in her grey, grey eyes, So when have I looked prettiest, Percy? she asked, almost blushing in spite of herself, twirling a piece of hair between her fingers.
I frowned at the question, and began to think. To my recollection, Annabeth had never looked un-pretty it wasnt an obvious beauty, like the Aphrodite cabin, but a simple, subtle beauty that could still take your breath away in one fell swoop. Believe me I know.
Seriously, answer slower; Annabeth said sarcastically, It does loads for my self esteem.
I rolled my eyes and decided on an answer. Okay, okay. Id have to say.last winter. On Olympus.
In my mind, I saw the Olympian party and Annabeth's hand gently touching my hair where I bore the scar of bearing the sky; taking her hand and dancing with her until the early morning; watching her smile and laugh as if she had no care in the world but for that evening.
Annabeth looked a little surprised and she sat up a little straighter. Really?
Really, really.
She bit her lip, looking thoughtful and intrigued. I could tell she hadnt expected that at all. She had a way of looking at herself and thinking negatively. If I could have one wish, it would be for Annabeth to see how amazing she truly was. Or perhaps, I thought, not. I guess I couldnt bear it if she ever changed, even if it were just a little.
Her eyes met mine once more. I tried not to lose myself in them, but already my heart had begun to ache. But I looked like a wreck last winter, she said, brushing away her hair as her eyes wandered out to sea. Why dyou say that?
I smiled, more to myself than anyone else. Because you were happy, I said simply.
A flicker of weakness or maybe sadness passed over her face and she turned her gaze once more to the ocean, blushing fiercely. She still looked stunning with her face glowing, flattered yet almost shy apart from she was Annabeth, and she was never shy. She couldnt do shy even if she wanted to.
Ive had little to be happy about for so long, Annabeth murmured. I felt a wave of sadness come over me, and without thinking I reached out and gently ran my hand down her cheek.
She looked up, but she didnt look angry, or even a little surprised.
It amazes me how you always manage to see the best in every situation, Percy, she said, and as my hand slipped away from her cheek she caught it and held it. Her eyes met mine briefly and she smiled, my whole heart warming as she did so.
Annabeth sighed, but the smile still played on her lips. What would I do without you, Percy Jackson? she whispered. I smiled and was about to reply when Annabeth leant over and kissed me on the cheek.
I didnt even have to start my sentence. My skin burnt where her lips had gently touched it.
Annabeth pulled away and stood up, her fingers slipping away mine. I looked up at her, being completely inadequate and simply looked at her; her golden hair rippling in the wind; the sun reflecting in her stormy grey eyes, and her expression wise, calm and beautiful. Her gaze dropped down to me and she held out her hand with a smile.
Come on, Seaweed Brain, she said, sounding like the Annabeth Id known for an eternity.
A smile crept onto my face and I stood; and we walked back to camp together, laughing and talking, as ever. And it was there that I promised myself to never forget that night when we laughed and we walked together - with her kiss upon my cheek, with her hand in mine... and with our backs to the sunset.
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He looks around the room Innocently overlooks the truth Shouldn't a light go on? Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white Never let nobody see him cry I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine
Aws... =3 I love how you put so much detail! Lovely writing, hun! <333
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We all have our moments: A moment to cry, a moment to laugh. A moment to be held, a moment to be let go. A moment to be sad for not having what we want, and a moment to be happy with what we got.
Yeah, we all have those moments. And I advise you not to put them to waste.
He shifted a little, trying to get comfortable. The chill was biting at the bare skin on his arms, but he dismissed it. His mind was wandering away from his body, so what did it matter?
It wasnt his fault. Any of this.
It wasnt his fault that she was all he thought about.
It wasnt his fault that his eyes would dart towards any golden glints, like her hair, as he walked down the street. It wasnt his fault that he saw her eyes reflected in the rippling storm clouds. It wasnt his fault
But what if it was?
He ground his thumb angrily along the floor and looked out to the skyline of Manhattan. The roof was the place he came to think about her. Nobody else. Just her.
Sometimes it would just be the things shed said. Sometimes it was her laugh. Sometime it was simply her face; smiling, thinking, crying, shouting, laughing. Hed seen it all.
But now, all he saw was the back of her head as she walked down Half Blood Hill, away from him. She hadnt looked back. Shed kept walking, like he wasnt there. She couldnt even allow him a glimpse of her face to last him the months that would follow. She had left him, stood alone.
And what was breaking his heart more than anything was the ease with which she had walked away, and didnt regret for a moment. And now, this cold evening, with the sound of taxis and people living their very normal lives, he wondered (and he hated himself for wondering) if that was, ultimately, what she would do. That would be the choice she would make.
To leave him, stood alone, as she walked to another destiny without a moment of regret.
Would she?
Hed always thought hed known her. He knew her strengths and weaknesses like the back of his scarred hands; he could tell what she was thinking in one glance at her beautiful face. But something had changed this summer. Hed seen a side of her that hed always know was there, but
What it came down to, he realised, was choices. Like what Hera and Hephaestus and Calypso had said. She, Annabeth, would have to choose between him and them.
The enemy. And himself.
Unless he was the enemy.
Oh, dont start that again, he told himself, turning his palm over. His scar was clearly visible; it didnt hurt him anymore, but it hurt him to remember. And it hurt him to remember what Luke had done to Annabeth, to Thalia to Camp, the one place in the world where he felt like himself, for once. Where he was accepted.
He just couldnt bring himself to understand how she could ever love Luke. Did he, Percy, not count for something, too? When had he turned his back on her? When had he betrayed her? Hed throw himself under a train without a moments thought for her. Luke threw her under the sky and made her bear the weight of the heavens.
And yet Luke was the one that made her cheeks burn that fiery red. Luke was the one who she had shed so many tears over. Luke was the one she had loved.
He shut his eyes, his tense body relaxing slowly.
Could she ever love him?
He thought of her now; everything about her everything so very Annabeth and he felt his heart start to crumble apart. She could never love him. He would never allow her to love him. Not while this prophecy was his, and not while his future held so much death.
It dawned on him, then. What his father had said to him all that time ago, about how siring him was an unforgivable mistake. Was this had what he had meant - this heroes half-life of a guarded heart and pain? The fact that the one person he loved more than anyone else in the world could never be his?
He would love her, always. She was his hearts, and she always would be. But he could live with the pain because he had to. Because he was the hero and that was his burden to bear. He could never break her heart, or leave her here alone. He would never be able to tear himself away from her if she loved him, and then she would have to be left with an empty space beside her
It was then that he promised himself that crushing truth. As much as he loved her, he would not let her love him. For her own sakes. She didnt deserve the pain it would cause her.
Annabeth Chase could never love Percy Jackson.
Because Percy Jackson would never allow it.
-- Edited by Dawnbreak at 20:27, 2008-08-16
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He looks around the room Innocently overlooks the truth Shouldn't a light go on? Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white Never let nobody see him cry I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine
We all have our moments: A moment to cry, a moment to laugh. A moment to be held, a moment to be let go. A moment to be sad for not having what we want, and a moment to be happy with what we got.
Yeah, we all have those moments. And I advise you not to put them to waste.
Me toooo!!! :D Lets celebrate our love of writing! -dances to 'Dancing queen'-
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We all have our moments: A moment to cry, a moment to laugh. A moment to be held, a moment to be let go. A moment to be sad for not having what we want, and a moment to be happy with what we got.
Yeah, we all have those moments. And I advise you not to put them to waste.