Hey guys! I decided to start a new journal. Finally XD... Enjoy teh writings >:3
Sickly and lost
So yea, this journal entry is about my bad news. I've always known i was a sickly person. I was always sick with something. For a few years everything seemed fine. I wasn't getting sick or anything. But things have started to get worse again.I started public school for the first time. Everything seemed fine, untill the sickness came back.
Of course i was scared. I was pale everyday. I missed alot of school from sickness. And then people started dissing me. They all knew something was wrong with me, but they never really cared. What if i die? I'm sure they'd start reliezing how much i have been through the past year and 1/2. I am quite scared though. I can hardly get myself to eat. My vision goes black for awhile everytime a get up from sitting or laying down. I'm scared that sooner or later, something is going to happen to me..
I have already been through alot. Divorce, abuse, alone...And now i am getting sick. I feel like life is dropping down on me, and soon that it will all be gone. I'll be gone. I can't take this fear....I'm worried. But, i will make it through this. I will try to fight it. All of it. I will keep trying. I will....
I've felt so alone lately. Like everyone just gave up on me and left. Truthfully, you guys help me through this. Your always there for me. Your my friends. You guys would never give up on me ^^. That is something i know for sure is true.
I luvs y'alls
~firey
Hopefully next journal will be nicer and more happy XDD
-- Edited by Firestar on Friday 14th of August 2009 08:26:16 PM
-- Edited by Firestar on Wednesday 16th of September 2009 01:53:25 AM
-- Edited by Firestar on Wednesday 23rd of September 2009 06:52:41 PM
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Thanks karma! The cat in my avie is my character firestar/leaf. Not the character from the book ;)
I am so sorry about this firey. That's completely terrible on how you get sick so much... Maybe you should be homeschooled again. I think that could make life a bit more easier. And as for you having black vision sometimes.. that happenes to me. I think it's okay, your just getting your vision adjusted. I can't really tell, but...
Hey guys!I just need to let you all know that i may not on to much. Lifes hard is all i can say. I'm not going to be gone forever. Please don't kick me off of teh RP's i'm in :( . I just can't keep coming on here right. I need a break. I need to get things right and under control. This may change in the next few days or so. But it depends.
I love all you guys! I may still go to youtube(To upload songs) or deviantart(To upload art) But not much on those websites either. I just don't think i can keep up with life right now. I will be back soon m'kay guys :(? I will probably still visit a few days of the week probably.
Miss you guys already *hug* Bye Bye!
Firey~
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Thanks karma! The cat in my avie is my character firestar/leaf. Not the character from the book ;)