[ any topics i create disappear. so... here i go again. :l *sigh* ]
everything just seems to disappear -- have you ever had a day like that? nothing goes right and you think everyone's against you? i have too. and... well because of that i decided to start a chain of poems -- not like crank, or burn (well actually i've never read them, and i'm not planning to anytime soon). you will see, my friends. [ basically it's just like poems that describe how people feel on a regular basis -- lovesick, happy, sad, depression, etc. ]
T.o.C 1. missyoumissyoumissyou [ i was debating whether or not to put this up, but i trust you guys ~ please dont steal this poem -- it is my life, and i want it that way ~ if it describes your life too, thats great. just dont steal it. or i will get MAD ] 2. thank you for everything you never knew you did [ i decided to put this up, because im pretty sure at least one person has been through this -- confused feelings about a good friend thats a guy. dont steal, please. ~ thank you! ] 3. 4. 5. 6. 7.
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
missyoumissyoumissyou ...im sure im not supposed to feel that way -- feel that your bloodshot, lake-blue eyes are my safe spot. believe that youre still there for me. and then i found him. i wanted to believe i could wipe my memories away about you by falling for him. just for night i fell for him to forget the hole you left in my chest -- that stupid hole that i deny is there because youre a cheater -- youre a liar and i know it but i let you hurt me anyways. your name is still written on my lips and im sorry to say but for one night i forgot your name and his name was written on my lips. and his brown eyes were my safe spot, even if he didnt know it. and the next day i woke up, looked in the mirror, and saw your name, his, and kyles written on my lips. and i asked myself out loud "why are these three people writting themselves on my lips when i will never be theirs and they never mine?" my fingers traced your name that was written on top of his, and then kyles which was written above both of yours. ...and looking into the mirror i swore i saw you next to me, hugging me. i swore i felt your long arms around me; your voice telling me to be safe. and i let one tear fall, and then got on with my day -- heart heavy, eyes glazed over. my feet were heavy, and then when i heard your voice, i got dizzy and fell to my knees -- or so i thought. i was just standing, laughing involuntarily about something my friend was saying. and im sorry to say -- afraid to say "missyoumissyoumissyou" and ask you to talk to me again -- whisper my name again and tell me nothings gonna take you away. which i knew would be a lie, but truthfully i wouldnt care whatsoever. because you would be there, and i would be safe. and i would love you for those few bittersweet moments. love you more than i ever had. because iw ould be in your arms, back in my place. and then maybe, honey-dear, just maybe i wouldnt miss you and your name would be gone. and his. ...not sure about kyle, hun. but yours, i think, would be gone. ...im only human, honey -- heartbreak and longing is a part of my life. deal with it.
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
"Bloodshot, lake-blue eyes" is a wonderful description. Simply wonderful. This has so much depth and emotion packed into it. Anybody can relate. Heck, I know I can. Amazing
thank you moonie -- you have no idea how good i feel that you said my poetry was amazing. <3
thank you for everything you never knew you did ...hun, i need you more than you know, so how about you stay with me until the day wears to an end forever, and we watch the sky fall above us into pieces. because that is what, above all things, i would love. youre my best friend, and even though youre a guy, im glad you help me out so much -- more than you know you do. your smile is my sun -- it just makes my heart brighten. your laugh is my sky -- it holds everything up. you are everything that makes me happy -- a friend, and anything else i need -- even if you dont know it yet. when i saw you that one day -- outside of the classroom in whcih we got to know eachother -- my face brightened, and i felt amazing, for that one moment in that day. we had won our game that day, but you made me feel better than when we won -- do i love you? ...i say to people i do, but i dont know about that. yes, my heart skips a beat when i speak to you -- am ever near you -- but does that mean anything? youre a guy -- im a girl -- anything is awkward around a guy that doesnt know me as well as others. of course, you dont know me that well -- we just met last year -- but youre still an amazing friend -- where would i be without you, hun? lost with the other dead-weights of this world? yeah, i think thats it. but thank you hun -- i owe you the world ~ ...i love you boy -- with the most sincerity i have. thank you.
[ this is for/about my good friend joe -- he's always been there for me, and hes just amazing. <3 hes funny, and even if he doesnt know it, he brightens up my day. he saw the end of one of my field hockey games and he was like, "you were amazing!" and in french class, he and i sit next to each other (as we do in any class we have with each other) and he had a gummy snake and put it on my shoulder -- it was cold, too so i jumped and squealed in fright -- hahaha! ~ but... now im wondering if i have more feelings for him than i actually know... <3 ]
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
That's truly emotional Well, if fate brings you together, i hope it lasts. Because mine certainly didn't. make a pact saying that you'll treat each other the same as before if things don't work out. It doesn't confirm anything, but it could help. Anyways, keep a few best guy friends in your life. They're good guys. You never know when one might slip away without warning..
i have only guy friends right now -- all the girls ditched me, which really doesnt bother me. (: once again, thank you moonie <<333 hahah my mom suggested i had my guy friends over for dinner -- a disaster in the making ~ hahaha!
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okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
